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Billie Eilish — Everything I Wanted
Album: Everything I Wanted
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Released: 2020
Length: 4:01
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I had a dream
I got everything I wanted
Not what you'd think
And if I'm being honest
It might've been a nightmare
To anyone who might care
Thought I could fly (fly)
So I stepped off the golden, mm
Nobody cried (cried, cried, cried, cried)
Nobody even noticed
I saw them standing right there
Kinda thought they might care (might care, might care)
I had a dream
I got everything I wanted
But when I wake up, I see
You with me
And you say, "As long as I'm here
No one can hurt you
Don't wanna lie here
But you can learn to
If I could change
The way that you see yourself
You wouldn't wonder why you're here
They don't deserve you"
I tried to scream
But my head was underwater
They called me weak
Like I'm not just somebody's daughter
It could've been a nightmare
But it felt like they were right there
And it feels like yesterday was a year ago
But I don't wanna let anybody know
'Cause everybody wants something from me now
And I don't wanna let 'em down
I had a dream
I got everything I wanted
But when I wake up, I see
You with me
And you say, "As long as I'm here
No one can hurt you
Don't wanna lie here
But you can learn to
If I could change
The way that you see yourself
You wouldn't wonder why you're here
They don't deserve you"
If I knew it all then would I do it again?
Would I do it again?
If they knew what they said would go straight to my head
What would they say instead?
If I knew it all then would I do it again?
Would I do it again?
If they knew what they said would go straight to my head
What would they say instead?
Comments (160)add comment
She almost has a Scandinavian sound, but the L.A. smog has done its damage. 
Absolutely love her voice and excited any time she gets played---she's an all-timer.
I didn’t want to like her music - but I do
 BCarn wrote:

Really? Come on man. She's just starting out and she has the talent to blossom. She's unique, she and her brother do it all themselves. They are the creative process and not pre-fab like so many these days. Every musical artiste has a "not her/his/their best"; big deal. Overall she's doing quite nicely.


unique, just like everybody else. 
i tried, just not a fan of  her stuff.
I'm not a big fan of the "new music" that's out there these days but Billie Eilish resonates with this crotchety old bugger for some reason.  And that would be referring to me. 
The backstory to this beautiful song isn't so beautiful...although it is in its own way :-)

She was suicidal and deeply depressed... her dream was that she died -- getting everything she wanted ("not what you'd think")

She went to her brother and they crafted this amazing song.... 

An anthem to suffering and survival and sibling support.

https://www.nickiswift.com/347...
Yeah, I agree that she's got something special. Her voice and lyrics had already caught my attention, though not enough for me to go looking for her music specifically. But I have to say she and Finneas pretty much blew me away at the Academy Awards. (Was pleased to see her go for classic, formal attire.)  "No Time To Die" is just damn good--and a good fit for a James Bond flick. Good time all around in the theatre with my sweetheart that rainy afternoon. Haunting, touching, memorable tune... 
good snoozing music
 BCarn wrote:

Really? Come on man. She's just starting out and she has the talent to blossom. She's unique, she and her brother do it all themselves. They are the creative process and not pre-fab like so many these days. Every musical artiste has a "not her/his/their best"; big deal. Overall she's doing quite nicely.

Buh, she has a team and companies like Chanel working on her image.
I adore how playful and expressive her voice is on this, and I think the fantastic arrangement showcases it perfectly!
it is a good groove

bouncy 

melodics and harmonics are sweet
What a breath of fresh air.   Great groove.
One of my favorites. Especially with a good sound system/headphones.
 cosmicjoe wrote:

She looks very happy. 




 RichW wrote:


I'm 66 and agree with this comment. I like it.



kids these days ...
 Godwottery wrote:


I'm 73 years old, and this music isn't my cup of tea, but i'm not complaining. However, you sound just like the adults of my youth who complained about that LOUD rock and roll noise with the lyrics that you couldn't understand.  


I'm 66 and agree with this comment. I like it.
NICE!!
 Godwottery wrote:


I'm 73 years old, and this music isn't my cup of tea, but i'm not complaining. However, you sound just like the adults of my youth who complained about that LOUD rock and roll noise with the lyrics that you couldn't understand.  



You damn well NAILED it!!!!! Like this one more than the vocoder mangled earlier toons. Not gonna buy an album just yet - but this is eminently listenable and thus perfect for RP and our collective musical enhancement
She looks very happy. 
 SoundThinker wrote:

I tried again to see if I could understand anything that she "sang" in this song and all it seems to be is mumbling. I do not get why her "music" is popular in the least. 



I'm 73 years old, and this music isn't my cup of tea, but i'm not complaining. However, you sound just like the adults of my youth who complained about that LOUD rock and roll noise with the lyrics that you couldn't understand.  
 dwhayslett wrote:

If you're having that much trouble understanding the words (any more than any other singer, anyway), perhaps the pebbles are in your ears.


Zing1
 KeithBrofsky wrote:

My teen girls love Billie, so I've followed her music for awhile. There's no question she and her brother are very talented. The snap judgment on her singing style is shortsighted. It does help to listen through earbuds or a decent sound system. It's very subtle but beautiful, in depth musical arrangements. As she's evolving, her voice is beginning to remind me of the other Billie... Ms Holiday. I think her acclaim is well deserved. 



I'm finding the talent isn't translating to enjoyability. Not enough to PSD, but not enamored at all.
 SoundThinker wrote:

Is she actually singing words or just sounds? She needs to get all the pebbles out of her mouth before she starts singing. 


If you're having that much trouble understanding the words (any more than any other singer, anyway), perhaps the pebbles are in your ears.
My teen girls love Billie, so I've followed her music for awhile. There's no question she and her brother are very talented. The snap judgment on her singing style is shortsighted. It does help to listen through earbuds or a decent sound system. It's very subtle but beautiful, in depth musical arrangements. As she's evolving, her voice is beginning to remind me of the other Billie... Ms Holiday. I think her acclaim is well deserved. 
Is she actually singing words or just sounds? She needs to get all the pebbles out of her mouth before she starts singing. 
I tried again to see if I could understand anything that she "sang" in this song and all it seems to be is mumbling. I do not get why her "music" is popular in the least. 
 jrozzelle wrote:

"How Billie Eilish Rode Teenage Weirdness to Stardom" by Jonah Weiner was in the
"The Music Issue," NYT, 3/15/2020.  Here are the first three paragraphs:

-----------------------------
    Sometime during the night of Sept. 4, 2018, Billie Eilish took her own life — in a dream. “I jumped off a building,” she recalled recently. What was most alarming about it, as she looked back, was how little it alarmed her. “I was in a really bad place mentally,” Eilish said; the dream struck her less as a nightmare than as a grimly alluring fantasy. The next day, she approached her older brother, Finneas O’Connell, a songwriter and producer, and told him about it. They have collaborated on every piece of music she has put out, and she presented the dream to him as possible inspiration for a new song.

     Eilish, whose full name is Billie Eilish Pirate Baird O’Connell, was raised in a two-bedroom, 1,200-square-foot Craftsman bungalow in a modest neighborhood on Los Angeles’s east side. In 2018, Finneas bought a house of his own, but his childhood bedroom, abutting Billie’s, has long been their favorite place to make music. (Their parents, working actors who augmented their income with side jobs in construction and teaching, still sleep on a futon in the living room.) Finneas, facing a keyboard, listened as Billie talked about her dream, and together they figured out some chords to frame Billie’s deceptively upbeat opening line — “I had a dream I got everything I wanted.”

    As they worked on the song, though, Finneas grew increasingly uncomfortable, then angry, and finally he refused to go any further. “We had this big argument,” Billie said. “Because I admitted something that I was, uh. It wasn’t a physical thing I was admitting. I don’t know how to put it without actually saying it, and I don’t want to actually say it. But it was me admitting to something that was very serious about my depression. A very serious step that I was admitting that I was planning on taking. And Finneas said, I don’t want to write a song about you killing yourself and how that’s everything you wanted!” Her parents caught wind of the argument and, along with Finneas, grew “insanely concerned,” Billie said. “It became this huge thing, and I locked myself in my room, and I was in there, just drawing on my wall.”
------------------------------

   My daughter introduced me to Eilish. My daughter and Eilish are the same age.   I was very alarmed when my daughter told me about the inspiration for this song.  Thank goodness she has a very supportive family and her music outlet, song writing and performing.   I want to watch her career and listen to her for a long time.  


Thank you so much for posting this. 
and a nice alum cover

like a Brubeck album cover

can you dig it? 
very nice in a silky, satiny, velourish feel

imagine that
I liked the music these two produce. Then I liked it a lot. Now even more. I have upgraded my system a few times during this period. I'd say it's fairly high endish now. I tell you this because with each upgrade I heard more and more in their music. The washes of sound, the pin point imaging, the distribution of sounds across the sound stage, her vocal control. It gives goose bumps. Oh and the bass, be careful of your speakers!  
'm older too, at 66.
 Proclivities wrote:

The comment "not her best" was just about this song, not her overall career or talent.


Thanks genius.
Ladies & Gents, you are living through the evolution of music  
Every generation will have artists that older people don't like or understand.  I think that is kinda the point of rock music.  That is the rebellious aspect of it.  
This one is melodious and not just ambient.

Understated, down tempo.  Not without precedent. 

Dreamy and lush. 

Interesting how this song polarizes ratings and comments.  Must be somethin' here.
 jules44 wrote:

I’m on Team No. I don’t see why she’s getting so much publicity and air play. There are thousands of singers out there that are better than this. And they write songs and have a real band. Not that I’m not open to new styles. I just don’t get it!!!!



But she and her brother are the band and they write their own songs. Two people aren't enough band members? Prince was a one man band. Perhaps you don't appreciate her technique as a singer or their instrumentation. But "proper" technique never made a successful singer or band. 
Having heard this 6-8 times in the last year I went from 7 to 8. I just like it. Being retired at 66 years old and well off v so many people, in this bad time, I don't give a rat's *** what people think about my song rating.
Please upload the new one Your Power, Bill
throw some happy pills down this girls neck and then some coke up her nose.
There are 7 Billie Eilish songs on RP, that’s 7 too many
How did this career slip under the radar. There's no voice there. Nothing
 yagermeister wrote:
 
 
I am old.  Radio Paradise opens new music to me on a daily basis, expanding my appetite.  My philosophy on music . . . does it sound good, invoke emotion, make me crave for more? yes, yes and yes.   



You are most definitely a young soul!

Bless and LLRP 

 janac13 wrote:
Every so often a pop song from my yoof appears on my YouTube feed. Without fail if I look at the comments there will be treasure trove of "when music was made by people and not machines" or "I was so lucky to have grown up in the 60's etc" or " there is no good music being played anymore". It just pisses me off at how so many people have locked themselves into the "Old Time Rock n Roll" mindset. So every so often I try to challenge these notions by pointing them to Billie as an example of great music of today. 

In my opinion this old is better mindset is nothing new as evidenced by the rise of "Classic Rock". But if you never want to turn into the "get off my lawn" guy you need to actively seek out new and interesting music. It can have so many benefits. For me Radio Paradise does just that. So from this 61yr old fart thanks Bill and Rebecca Long live RP...

Rant over normal content will resume...😁🙏
 
I am old.  Radio Paradise opens new music to me on a daily basis, expanding my appetite.  My philosophy on music . . . does it sound good, invoke emotion, make me crave for more? yes, yes and yes.   


 VH1 wrote:
Why does this teenage angst crap being played on an adult music station?
This shite is unbearable.
There are millions of young singers out there better than this talentless overhyped whispering no singing sleeping pill.
 
Thanks for ranting over your fears 
The evolution of music  It happens every once in a while. The geriatric brigade

should get used to it and stop  
Why does this teenage angst crap being played on an adult music station?
This shite is unbearable.
There are millions of young singers out there better than this talentless overhyped whispering no singing sleeping pill.
 MassivRuss wrote:
RazzCat wrote:
This 75-year old fart seconds that emotion. Thanks, B&R.... :)
My feel is, Billie Eilish is one of those generation-defining voices you'll remember a couple decades from now.
She's that good to come....

So she sucks right now. Agreed.

So why play her right now?
 
I'm not sure you read that correctly.
 idiot_wind wrote:

Oooh. Cubism! 

Not to be confused with the Dada art movement. 
 
obviously doesn't know what cubism is. 
I’m on Team No. I don’t see why she’s getting so much publicity and air play. There are thousands of singers out there that are better than this. And they write songs and have a real band. Not that I’m not open to new styles. I just don’t get it!!!!
I really enjoy this one - elegant, spare, minimalist - feels good.

This woman has a bright future. 
 niseywee wrote:
loving that cover art 
 
Oooh. Cubism! 

Not to be confused with the Dada art movement. 
 RazzCat wrote:


This 75-year old fart seconds that emotion.   Thanks, B&R.... :)
My feel is, Billie Eilish is one of those generation-defining voices you'll remember a couple decades from now.
She's that good to come....
 

So she sucks right now. Agreed.

So why play her right now?
I don't know, I just don't get it.  I mean she's ok but just not worth all the praise...just a lot of teenage angst I guess.
loving that cover art 
My teenage girls love her so I took notice. (They also dress like her... at least it's baggy clothes.) I think she's got a unique and refreshing sound. She's obviously a serious talent. It'll be interesting to see how she evolves.
 neptunejeff wrote:
Dark and sparse delivery of Beatles "Yesterday" during Grammy Awards  caught my attention. Some of her stuff is pretty good. Listen with  Bose headphones,  
 
Good advice.  Taking it right now.
Great segue from Alt-J’s Tessellate!
Open your mouth and fucking sing. Thank you.
 janac13 wrote:
Every so often a pop song from my yoof appears on my YouTube feed. Without fail if I look at the comments there will be treasure trove of "when music was made by people and not machines" or "I was so lucky to have grown up in the 60's etc" or " there is no good music being played anymore". It just pisses me off at how so many people have locked themselves into the "Old Time Rock n Roll" mindset. So every so often I try to challenge these notions by pointing them to Billie as an example of great music of today. 

In my opinion this old is better mindset is nothing new as evidenced by the rise of "Classic Rock". But if you never want to turn into the "get off my lawn" guy you need to actively seek out new and interesting music. It can have so many benefits. For me Radio Paradise does just that. So from this 61yr old fart thanks Bill and Rebecca Long live RP...

Rant over normal content will resume...😁🙏
 

This 75-year old fart seconds that emotion.   Thanks, B&R.... :)
My feel is, Billie Eilish is one of those generation-defining voices you'll remember a couple decades from now.
She's that good, with more to come....
 glassman wrote:
Horrible, horrible garbage. Mumble mumble.
 
Funny, was just thinking that about your comment.
 BCarn wrote:

Really? Come on man. She's just starting out and she has the talent to blossom. She's unique, she and her brother do it all themselves. They are the creative process and not pre-fab like so many these days. Every musical artiste has a "not her/his/their best"; big deal. Overall she's doing quite nicely.
 
I still like When I was older, I over heard on FM she's cutting her hair and changing her musical direction in 2021, excited to see what comes out of that!
She's great, but it sounds like they are pulsing the volume artificially, and I find that really hard to listen to. 
 MilesW wrote:
 paloeguevo wrote:

For me it truly makes sense that she is in RP. The point is to play good music and this song is great.

I agree - interesting to hear... but 9 times in 30 days?  I guess I have outgrown my tolerance for repetition...

 
Unless you listen to RP 24x7, it seems unlikely you heard all 9 plays.  So why is it an issue?
I'm stuck between loathing and liking.
Minimal, mumbling, music-less.
So that's Billie Eilish. Kept reading articles about her and was impressed with what I read, but had no idea what her music was like. Thanks RP!
hello, 49 year old white male here who thinks Billie Eilish is terrific, as is this song. A wonderful blend of different styles well-organized and put across authentically. She is not some propped-up pop queen. She and her brother did this in their bedrooms. They mean it, and they did it themselves. You go girl!
 BCarn wrote:

Really? Come on man. She's just starting out and she has the talent to blossom. She's unique, she and her brother do it all themselves. They are the creative process and not pre-fab like so many these days. Every musical artiste has a "not her/his/their best"; big deal. Overall she's doing quite nicely.
 
"Unique"? Hmph. I listened all the way through because I've heard her name enough to want to see what all the fuss is about. I didn't hear anything new or different that makes her stand out as "unique". Maybe that's what the florescent green hair is for.
Geez what a piece of rubbish thank s for the  ps d button ...too much depressive teenage angst..not something for RP I'm not 13 anymore 
What a gorgeous album cover. Quite the contrast to the other album cover of hers that I have seen. 
 MilesW wrote:
 paloeguevo wrote:

For me it truly makes sense that she is in RP. The point is to play good music and this song is great.

I agree - interesting to hear... but 9 times in 30 days?  I guess I have outgrown my tolerance for repetition...

 
Nine times in a month is about once every 3 days - Bill's collection is extensive so I do not understand why any song would be played so frequently. I am listening to RP more and more these days while working from home. I liked this song when I first heard it but I am getting tired of this song popping up on RP so often. It is a good song but I find myself hitting the skip button just because it is being played too much. 
 BCarn wrote:

Really? Come on man. She's just starting out and she has the talent to blossom. She's unique, she and her brother do it all themselves. They are the creative process and not pre-fab like so many these days. Every musical artiste has a "not her/his/their best"; big deal. Overall she's doing quite nicely.
 
The comment "not her best" was just about this song, not her overall career or talent.
 glassman wrote:
Horrible, horrible garbage. Mumble mumble.
 

Try playing it at 45.
33 is too slow.
 paloeguevo wrote:

For me it truly makes sense that she is in RP. The point is to play good music and this song is great.

I agree - interesting to hear... but 9 times in 30 days?  I guess I have outgrown my tolerance for repetition...

It took me a little time to really listen to Billie but man, just keeps growing on me. Love the emotion, honesty and the fresh production. AND it's great to hear new artists on RP. Cheers!
 neptunejeff wrote:
Dark and sparse delivery of Beatles "Yesterday" during Grammy Awards  caught my attention. Some of her stuff is pretty good. Listen with  Bose headphones,  
 
Well, if we know anything at all, we know that advertising $$ works.
 DanielHLloyd wrote:
I can acknowledge the talent (maybe), but I just don't get why she is on RP. I listen to RP to get away from gloomy whiny teenage music that my daughters like. Then again, once upon a time, I think MY parents thought Pink Floyd was gloomy whiny teenage music. So I GET it.....I suppose. Maybe. I don't know. Help. I need a drink.
 
For me it truly makes sense that she is in RP. The point is to play good music and this song is great.
Mimetic of Hope Sandoval, of Mazzy Star.  If anyone likes this song perhaps they should listen to Hope's vocals on the Massive Attack song, "The Spoils".
Every so often a pop song from my yoof appears on my YouTube feed. Without fail if I look at the comments there will be treasure trove of "when music was made by people and not machines" or "I was so lucky to have grown up in the 60's etc" or " there is no good music being played anymore". It just pisses me off at how so many people have locked themselves into the "Old Time Rock n Roll" mindset. So every so often I try to challenge these notions by pointing them to Billie as an example of great music of today. 

In my opinion this old is better mindset is nothing new as evidenced by the rise of "Classic Rock". But if you never want to turn into the "get off my lawn" guy you need to actively seek out new and interesting music. It can have so many benefits. For me Radio Paradise does just that. So from this 61yr old fart thanks Bill and Rebecca Long live RP...

Rant over normal content will resume...😁🙏
I can acknowledge the talent (maybe), but I just don't get why she is on RP. I listen to RP to get away from gloomy whiny teenage music that my daughters like. Then again, once upon a time, I think MY parents thought Pink Floyd was gloomy whiny teenage music. So I GET it.....I suppose. Maybe. I don't know. Help. I need a drink.
 DigitalJer wrote:
Billie might not be for everyone, but I'm glad to see her here.  Fits right in.
 

That's true it does fit right in.  I like her music but i'm really confused at her incredible popularity. I don't find the music, or her voice, to be anything extraordinary.  Obviously a lot of people do.
Billie might not be for everyone, but I'm glad to see her here.  Fits right in.
 glassman wrote:
Horrible, horrible garbage. Mumble mumble.
 

yeah this is a joke.
and what is even funnier is that Bill plays 6 songs from her - the same amount he plays from Velvet Underground. 
reminds me of a female radio head....not a compliment.  Billie 3ish at best.
Don't understand the haters here. 
Horrible, horrible garbage. Mumble mumble.
1 trick pony...

Indeed!
 orthomd wrote:
Phenomenal talent...not sure why people don’t recognize that..even Elton John said she is one of the most talented artists of today
 Indeed


 ianmoff wrote:
Like listening to paint dry - in a lift stuck between floors.
 
Indeed.
 jcyr wrote:
Eilish again! Pretty boring stuff!
 
Indeed. 
 Dahlia_Gumbo wrote:
Ouch, no, yuck.
 
Indeed.
Phenomenal talent...not sure why people don’t recognize that..even Elton John said she is one of the most talented artists of today
 baylees wrote:
she is what the faux music group the monkeys where
or is just backed by a promoter
 
Kinda the opposite of that, actually. Almost everything she's done is just her and her brother with no outside input or "advice". 
 BCarn wrote:

Really? Come on man. She's just starting out and she has the talent to blossom. She's unique, she and her brother do it all themselves. They are the creative process and not pre-fab like so many these days. Every musical artiste has a "not her/his/their best"; big deal. Overall she's doing quite nicely.
 

I agree but my concern is in today's world where talent is no longer allowed to develop she will be dealt with in a way that will see her disappear from view. 
 Edweirdo wrote:


And then cut it in half again.
 
Haters. Not everybody is an old fart (although I may qualify.) She's a young artist. Give her a chance to mature and she may surprise you.
 jonathansteven wrote:
 pa508701 wrote:
7 plays in the last 30 days. I do not think this songs needs to be played this often; especially when considering the deep vault Bill has.
Now at 8 plays in the last 30 days.  Cut this in half.

 

And then cut it in half again.
Impressive artist! In 2020, this track holds its own against many great tracks of 70 years ago
 pa508701 wrote:
7 plays in the last 30 days. I do not think this songs needs to be played this often; especially when considering the deep vault Bill has.
Now at 8 plays in the last 30 days.  Cut this in half.

One of those songs that hit you right away as something you want to hear again
 pa508701 wrote:
7 plays in the last 30 days. I do not think this songs needs to be played this often; especially when considering the deep vault Bill has.
 
New releases usually get more airplay for a while.
she is what the faux music group the monkeys where
or is just backed by a promoter
Porn muzak
Mold will also grow on you. If you let it.
orthomd wrote:
 
 

I love this song. Billie and Finneas are true artists.
Phrasing is just incredible.  
I really like this. Have you seen her videos? Talk about creepy and dark.
I don't 'get it' either? My daughter on the other hand thinks Eilish is amazing so it could be a generation gap thing? Don’t think so since Sir Elton John said she is one of the best new artists he’s heard It’s about broadening you’re interests Listen to it more...she really grows on you and has a very unique sound
Eilish again! Pretty boring stuff!
My daughter loves this artist. I give her an 8 for her unique style and for bypassing the record industry powers and making it on her own terms.
 quintana wrote:

9 plays in the last 30 days as of now. But I feel it is being played even more. I listen to RP for a couple of hours every day and it feels like this song gets played every time. 

Though I like this song (gave it an 8) I like diversity even more.
 
Probably the first time I recognise hearing it; the other 8 plays must have drifted off into the ether where it belongs!
 ianmoff wrote:
Like listening to paint dry - in a lift stuck between floors.
 
I don't 'get it' either? My daughter on the other hand thinks Eilish is amazing so it could be a generation gap thing?
Like listening to paint dry - in a lift stuck between floors.
Very talented young lady
modern day spoken word, I guess.
"If they knew what they said would go straight to my head

What would they say instead?"

Yep.
 lizardking wrote:
I'm good with BillG playing this one more frequently considering it JUST came out....and I went +1 to 8, due to the fact I'm working from home (like so many) and have the tower speakers cranking...this one sounds  much better with some power behind it than it did on the headphones....Long Live RP and new and old music!!
 
It JUST came out like six months ago, but what even is time during the coronavirus?

Anyway, I dig it.
 pa508701 wrote:
7 plays in the last 30 days. I do not think this songs needs to be played this often; especially when considering the deep vault Bill has.
 
9 plays in the last 30 days as of now. But I feel it is being played even more. I listen to RP for a couple of hours every day and it feels like this song gets played every time. 

Though I like this song (gave it an 8) I like diversity even more.
A long time ago, success started in the garage. 
The last decades were spilled by companies who designed sound and image.

These artist came from their own heart, just like the old garage raised bands.