Lamenting, once again, the loss of the journals. I know they're not coming back and I know and understand why.

i think they contributed much to a  sense of community. 

Doing well. We sold the company and I stayed on for a bit, but ultimately they didn't understand what they purchased and I didn't like what they were doing. I've bopped around doing some consulting and wound up buying some airplanes from the creditors of a guy that I warned about his impending bankruptcy, and I bought a company that makes electrical systems for boats. I'm now a part time craftsman making some really cool stuff.  We also sold all our dirt and moved on to a larger boat. The long term plan is a year or so in the gulf of Mexico and then see what comes up next.

Things are good with me. How are you doing? Where are you these days? 
 

Yeah, well I miss seeing some of the old timers around... 

How's things?

I miss the journals. That is all. 

I miss the journals. That is all. 

As you can see, the journals code is buggy; Bill determined it was not worth fixing but he kept the existing journals alive for posterity. What seems like spam (former member) posts, repeated several times, is actually just a bug. Someone who posted a comment on your journal asked to be deleted from RP and have their username deleted for whatever reason. Bill changed the user's name to (former member). He did the same thing for a few people before it became clear that in the journals, One post from (former member) got replicated, one time for each person who's now called (former member). Or something along those lines.

Anyway, I can still see your journal. If you can't, you should send Bill a PM or post in the Bug Reports thread to see if there is some flag on your account now. But don't worry about the state of your journal; it's a dying art...

Welcome back!

When you get right down to it, what isn't?

Well, except for velour leisure suits. Those were somebody else. 

 Dang. It's probably ov's fault.

Hi everyone!!

I just logged in to my account for the first time in over ten years.  I finally remembered my username and password lol!!

I clicked on my journal and read my one and only entry and it was cool to see it and the comments from way back in 2006 when I was a Radio Paradise newbie!

As I read the comments I noticed some spammy ones and I tried to delete them.  Immediately a message popped up from Bill calling me a spammer!!!!

I tried to go back to my journal entry but it was gone .

I'm just here to let you know I'm not a spammer and I've been listening to Radio Paradise for many years and I love every minute of it!!  

Oh God. This is going to be harder than I thought.  Everything feels like it's closing in on me.  Things don't even feel real.

Oh God. This is going to be harder than I thought.  Everything feels like it's closing in on me.  Things don't even feel real.

Oh God. This is going to be harder than I thought.  Everything feels like it's closing in on me.  Things don't even feel real.

Oh God. This is going to be harder than I thought.  Everything feels like it's closing in on me.  Things don't even feel real.

Sorry it's taken me so long to acknowledge this.  I hope you're well.  

Mom died 2 weeks ago.  I've been here with her for the last few years and this year we spent fighting her health.  In and out of the hospital, into rehab, back to the hospital, etc.  We lost.  No siblings.  Dad died in 1974.  There's no one else in my life.  I am unmarried, and I have no children at 45.  This doesn't feel like home anymore.  It feels like she took it with her.  It just feels like the house I was born in and really nothing more. I've never lost anyone before and this feels huge.  I'm so lost.  I have aches and pains everywhere since she died.  It scares me.  I don't know if it's depression or cancer.  I can't muster up enough strength or courage to go to a doctor.  My will to live has been waining for years.  This year I had a purpose.  Now, I don't.  

I hate my job and it makes me miserable.

I think I'm in deep trouble.

This post will be something that I've forgotten about and any replies will get lost in the thread because it will expire with the timeline.

The original journals were always there to go back to.  I sure wish they still were.  I may go scatterbrained through all this and I just don't have the energy to search back when I finally think about it.  

It may have been cheaper, less trouble and more efficient to have ditched them, but shit.  I feel like i knew I was going to need them when they were taken away.  And I would talk more if they were around.  Instead, I'm going to go to a counselor.  I have to.  
 
Life has never felt lonelier.